Warden

You are the warden in my mind. The clink across the bars awakes me, your echoes haunting me as I rise. Your eyes so intoxicating that I never want to look away. But all things change, all things fade... I sit in this cell, the key around my neck. I'm the architect of my own incarceration, but still I cannot leave. Cannot, will not... not sure I even want to. Because once I leave these confines within my heart, I fear the spectre of you will vanish and the memory will cease to be. For even in these tortured moments I see you, taste you, feel you near. And in this prison of my creation, I have the ghost of you near. Just a little while longer... Just a little while longer...

Little Ram

Parallel is a state of being

Simple, yet not quiet seeming

Opaque, when the paths start weaving

A circle that craves completing

The ethereal, so commonplace

In the echoing of our mistakes

The pain, is what we can't erase

We just wait and see what time it takes

We held on so long

Took all the right steps

But in the end the dance went wrong

Yet with paradise in view

What I let come between me and you

And I didn't know

Or you claimed not to remember

What in the end kept us

From being together

I cannot find the ways between

The reality of what I've seen

From what we mean to what we say
The frail ways that thought meets touch

When I try to clutch.
The smoke wisps as they fall away

Can't hold on today,
The burning embers just hurt too much

And I see your story unfolding

Amidst the blinking cursors on the screen

I blink the rainfall from upon my face

The weather reminds me of my place

As the droplets run down the window pane

My vision blurs but I see again

Our awkward dance, hand in hand

Each growing and trying to understand

Our place in life, our place together

Our part in always, our fate in never

I still love you, as I nod and smile

Congratulate your newborn child

Your happy marriage and story book life

You have your husband, you are a wife

And I've this cup of coffee and aching fingers

As I write the the epilogue where memories linger

The cigarette burns as the ashes fall

So brief the moment, that decides it all

But the coffee's cold and my eyes are sore

So may I rest and think on this no more

Evening

On an old wooden bench, surrounded by woods

The night sky our only peers

We'd discuss the universe, and Hell, and Heaven

Philosophy beyond our years

We never touched that place we spoke of

A distant longing we both knew

So eloquent in our discourse of love

So afraid to see it through

Meandering, our courses taken

Where the wind or fancy flew

But together something did awaken

Spectres we both knew were true

We tread the realms of ghosts and magic

Myth and legend, souls entwined

Such missed chances, almost tragic

Everything comes and goes in time

I return sometimes, hear crickets chirping

Amidst these trees that formed my youth

And all our questions left interpreting

Inside we both held the truth

Night and Stars

Nights and Stars

When I am near you again

I feel alive in a way I'd forgotten how to.

Your hand in mine, our spinning cadence

Happier than I should be allowed to

Left haunted by the images

The dreams my mind can draw

My need for you like sacrilege

Our dance leaves me in awe

Flying closer to you

Is like flying at the sun

I know I'll fall like Icarus

But what if I become

Photons so I can share the light?

So blinding as you are

Fusion to bring us together

Bright shining as a star

And I'll fall to the ground like Lucifer

No warnings of Pride left to teach

When I tried to leap for Heaven

I tried to grasp beyond my reach

I awake suddenly cold and shaking

Maybe this is Hell?

The feeling of waking up without you

Hurts more than when I fell

Borealis

You take away my breath at night
Sharing time in that lonely light
Two of a kind though we're different suits
You fell into me and I into you
Nothing much we both could do
Wishing we'd given it a try to see it through

I'm staring at these Northern lights
As I lay awake at night
The stars are falling
I hear you calling
Baby, maybe we'll win this fight

A message, a call, a come on over
A laugh, a cry, a leaning shoulder
We're lovers and friends
We share and we send
Such pieces of us and we will til the end...

But right now, the night drops cold
And the sky grows dim cuz you aren't here to hold...

It was all drawn up wrong though it felt so right
But Magic happens at the most random times
Arm in arm and eye to eye
The rest of the world just blurs right by

But the sun will rise as your lights fade away
As I open my eyes to a brand new day
Such moments retreating
But our hearts still beating
When our hands intertwine I know we're okay